Monday, January 7, 2008
I am back updating my blog again. I realized having a blog is a very useful thing sometimes. Sometimes when emotions seems to overwhelmed you and you just need a place to write down your feelings, a blog seems a good place.
I was just looking at my previous entry which was dated 23 dec. I am amazingly updating my blog within a month of my last entry. Thats a breakthrough haha. It only spells two things, either i am becoming more concentious or that i am just having more mixed feelings. Sad to say the latter is true for me. It seems like there is endless streams of problems, endless things to consider and worries. Yes worries and problems are becoming a commonplace these days is my life.
Finally others may comment, i am cracking. I never thought i would ever come to a place where my problems and worries would overwhelmed me to a extend that it would wipe out the laughter and happy-go-lucky image i portray on the outside. Yes some who dont know me well, would comment Yijie is just a youth who leads a happy-go-lucky life who seems to just take things lightly in life. Others who know me better would understand i am just a simple person who in chinese proverbs say "ku zhong zuo le" - meaning making merry in bad times.
I was thinking of whether to state my problems in this blog, but on 2nd thoughts i shouldnt. Everyone these days are going through tough times, there is no point adding stress to everyone.
If you are close to me, after reading this, you can just drop me a message, and i might tell you haha..
Anyway on the light side of things my new year goals for this year is to be sharper looking (which explains why i changed my hairstyle, and specs to follow soon), and to be more neater and organised, and more financial planning. But in the midst of all my worries, some positives came out of it, i was tasked to be the ic for organizing committee of my zone thanksgiving, after days of endless stress, and a 1 or 2 nights of sleeping well, it went on well enough
Suprisingly it was one of the first thanksgiving, i was too stressed to eat or fellowship much around. And to add on to the positives, i somehow manage to win 3rd best growth for my zone. This is the first award i have won since i joined children church. But this awards really grows to my most encouraging cluster IC Joanna who always pushes me to do greater things for God and my helper Joanna Cai who is always there to help.
God is really faithful in the midst of so much problems.
" I have never walked on water, felt the waves beneath my feet...
But at your word Lord, i receive to walk on oceans deep"
